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Best Sex I Never Had (feat. Jackie Soro)

from Change by Pax Ressler

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Kyle Schirmann The Bearded Ladies Cabaret’s “Contradict This! A Birthday Funeral for Heroes,” The Ellen Stewart Theatre at La MaMa, June 27, 2019 Favorite track: Best Sex I Never Had (feat. Jackie Soro).
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lyrics

There was a time when all I wanted was to lean, loaf, enjoy my soul
You filled my dreams with hot, wet wild seeds
I opened up and swallowed them whole 
I remember I'd wake shaking hard, fast and slick with condensation  
I breathed your words in, I spit them back out
Convinced myself it was a conversation 

But my body swelled and my longing grew
Turned over the soil that was home to you
You gave me a voice that I needed bad

You planted a seed somewhere deep in me
Will it ever flower past a fantasy?
You were the best sex I never had

There was a time when all I wanted was your sweaty hand and bearded kiss 
Between the sheets of paper I felt your ink spilling out in bliss
You told me you were with me, in the same time and place
Electric and adhesive, filling my empty space

Two queers together clinging, my lover and my comrade
You were the best sex I never had

But what if reality pales in comparison?
A man who eats, shoots, and leaves when he’s done?
For now I’ll just cling to the fantasy

Daddy, don't look down, away from me
Are you as good as I dreamed you’d be?
The promise of your kiss still drives me mad

Paper and ink mixed with grass and earth
I’m still deciding what your love is worth
You were the best sex I never had

The best sex I never had
The best sex I never had
The best sex I never had
The best sex I never had

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from Change, released November 24, 2020
Music & Lyrics by Jackie Soro & Pax Ressler

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Pax Ressler Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Pax Ressler is a queer, transfemme singer-songwriter based in Philadelphia. Her albums "Change" and "dreams" are love letters to the trans and non-binary community.

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